tonight i walked down to the internet cafe wearing my winter coat for the first time since getting here. i put things in my pockets so i wouldn't have to bring a purse, my hair was really clean (still is), i had on a really pretty scarf and i was listening to a couple of epic coldplay songs. it was glorious.
i couldn't just leave my blog where my last post left it. i realized that i said really nothing about how i'm doing. so, here you go.
i'm very alone and very aware of how alone i am. but it's not really a sad thing. i love walking down the street by myself with my music and my thoughts. right now, sarah and i doing a lot of tea drinking and writing to friends and winding down after three hectic weeks of screwing in knives with butter forks. we're processing all of the time. sarah says that three weeks of processing here is probably akin to four months of processing back home. i think it's true. it's so easy to see myself clearly when my comfort zone is half way around the world from me. it's hard to be that transparent with myself all of the time, but it's been good. honest and good. i'm learning a lot. there've been some issues on the back burner that are getting their day in sun now and while i don't always like dealing with them, it was time to do it. needless to say, my journal is quickly filling up. :) i do like to think. and to pray and write and serve people really good food and talk about where my accent is from and what i think about london. it's enough for now. soon i will try to do more things, but the quiet home-body lifestyle is exactly what i've been craving without knowing that i was craving it. :)
i miss books though. i didn't bring hardly any books and i feel like i left some of my dearest friends at home in boxes. it's not a nice feeling. but don't worry, i'll buy more and then leave them behind for some other wanderer to sink into.
i'm tired now. i need to go buy tape. and something else. i can't remember what it is right now, but maybe by the time i get to the store...
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What kind of grocery shopping are we talking about? ;)
Miss you. Am coming soon!
I like what you (or, rather, Sarah) said about the intensified processing time. That's a lot like how I felt in Lake Forest. I had SO many new things dealt to me in such a short time, and nobody familiar around to process with.
I hope, though, that your London experience is 413 time better than my Lake Forest experience was. :-)
Hey, the restraunt where you work has an updated web site that is pretty cool. http://www.hardysbrasserie.co.uk/
I noticed that it is near Portland Place...no wonder you like it so much :-)
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